Okay this is the point where I apologize again. I am so sorry.
I have had quite the roller coaster ride in the last few years (10+) and it has been a little much too keep up with.
It is a flying by the seat of the pants sort of thing.
I have been doing that.
It is a not having the feet on the ground kind of thing.
I have been doing that.
It is not knowing if my plans will work out.
I have no idea.
It is a feeling of being to old to make it work again.
Trying to ignore that.
It is a colapsing in a puddle because I have no idea what to do.
I get up and do something.
It boils down to a feeling of being not good enough and not being able to change things anymore.
Life has been too much for too long, I have been trying to remember myself before being beat about the body and head by it.
The self with happiness, the one with Joy, the with anticipation of the beautiful things and the expecting of them.
I have also started seeing and acupuncturist to help me with me stress.
Stress is about money for me, I pay for her, I will go when I need it, it has change my life. I honestly believe if I would have continued giving, and worrying, and panicking, I seriously think I might not be here today.
She SAW me, she asked what I did for a living and I apologetically said "I am an artist" and she said "What a Gift". Mouth wide open here. I have never heard that before. I will go to here until I feel I do not need to anymore. "When the student is ready the teacher comes" 
Moral of the story-
Life is sometimes knowing that you do not know what the hell you are doing, even if you have been around a long time. It is a a place between Joy and Pain, it is a balance.
It is a remaining true to yourself and your beliefs when people are telling you different or you are "Hearing" different.
It is knowing you have friends and family that make that roller coaster of life a little more easy to live in.
Love is all there is.
And boy am I learning!
Love to you all
Me
I finally updated my web site. Have a look if life is not too much for you. And even... maybe if it is.

Http://www.mariesegal.com
I am on Facebook a lot
Http://www.facebook.com/mariesegal1
It is quick and easy, but I am pulling all of me together and miss my blog and you.

At my daughters wedding

Hello to you all

I am fine and I am well. I hope this post finds you all the same.
Life has been full for me
I find that my life is moving so very fast, this year is half over now and it  has seemed to have flown by.
Do you feel the same?
Thank you to the few of you that were concerned and wrote to ask if I was OK.
You made my days. I missed you all. I am OK.
If ever you want to see what is up with me and if I am still alive, you can check my face book pages.
The link is on the right hand side, just scroll down a little or this is it https://www.facebook.com/mariesegal1
I have a ton of pictures over at facebook on my class and the museum show pieces.

When I got back from my parents in Florida, I had things to do to catch up after Cabin Fever (more about that later) and I got ready for a class at the Mingei Museum in Balboa Park, San Diego, California.
It was wonderful. The women that helped me bring this all together took very good care of me.
They mixed all of the clay, they printed all of the handouts,the set up a power point presentation, so I could have a larger over view for the students, they coordinated all of the students and took the registrations,set up all of the tables and seats in a beautiful room at the museum.

I was so grateful for their competent and never-ending work and sweetness. Thank you Johanna and Jackie!
I wondered the whole time how I got so lucky to be able to do this. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

This class was part of a Gallery exhibition on polymer clay at the museum that will be ending on the 17th of this month June 2012, you really should go if you are in the area here. It is Polymer Clay History in the making. It is the brain child and pure love of a woman named Elise Winters. Thank you Elise, it was so wonderful to see your vision come to reality in such a brilliant way!
Elise's web site is the Polymer Clay Archive and you can see it here. http://polymerartarchive.com/
Both the Mingei International Museum in San Diego's Balboa park and the Racine Art Museum in Racine, WI now have permanent collections of polymer clay. That is one big step for polymer clay, yay Elise, ya did good.
I have been keeping up with both of my stores(links on the right, scroll down), writing, playing with the greatest Granddaughter in the world (Madi and I are trying to make a garden too) and living the good life.
I have some traveling scheduled this year too.How did I get so lucky??

I will be playing in here when ever I can again, I miss you all. Thank you for being here and still visiting and reading this humble blog while I took some time.
Tell me what you have been doing, I would love to know!!

May light and love shine in and radiate out from your beautiful hearts.
TTFN

A wonderful site- Orkney Springs

Shrinemont in Orkney Springs Virgina is a beautiful place with natural springs, beautiful fields, skiing nearby(in the season), many houses with wonderful porches surrounding them, basket ball, pools, wonderful kids, good hearty food (locally grown and well made), and places to have conferences and meetings.

There are firefly's, they amaze me and we don't have them here so they are somewhat of a mystery to me. I love to watch them light up the trees like a Christmas night in the middle of a June evening with frogs croaking, a small glass of wine, a rocking chair and a porch to relax on. It was a magical moment for me, but that happened more than once on this trip.

I can imagine having a family reunion there. Everyone could stay in one house, they are so big and be with each other and yet have some place to retreat to if they wish.

I guess what I went to is a family of sorts, a family of women with a common interest, their interest in creating.

The trees were green and gorgeous.
The thing though that held my interest and that has drawn many a person to this beautiful mountain glen in the Virginia area are the springs.

This is one of those springs, This is the pathway leading up to the spring that has been lined with rock and has a fountain of water coming from it.
If you look closely it seems that a person is standing in the forest. The large rock on top being the head.

Arms spread wide and water dripping down the legs.
The water is almost red in color and the rocks are stained with the iron in them.

It flows at this time of year ice-cold from the mountains. The water is refreshing and tastes of iron.
The blood of the earth.

It is hard to stay away from the fountain, at least for me it was.
The waters are rumored to be healing and I washed my hands in them often.
I love my hands, not because they are beautiful but because they are my tools, the only ones I really need besides my heart and my mind.
The surrounding area is lovely too. The water trickles down in to another glen.

I can imagine Indians staying here and in one of the little store down the road they were selling Indian artifacts that were probably found around there.
Hammers, arrowheads, and skin scrapers.

Walking through the hills I even found some old pottery. One of the ladies incorporated it in to one of her creations while we were there. How cool is that?
I brought the rest back as souvenirs.

All in all a beautiful retreat and resting place in the north American continent.
It is open from April till November if you are in that neck of the woods.