Monday, September 8, 2014
Life has been busy, do you feel that way?
Learning to adapt to new circumstances, my granddaughter starting school, in a creative whorl of ideas, a lightening of space, adjusting to a new approach to life and thinking about deep things deep in my heart.
I feel that part of the process of being an artist and being self-employed is about dealing with the fear of the day to day, about the fear of not having a guaranteed paycheck or even if I can pay for insurance.
I had a dear friend say to me one time, "I choose this, and I will work it out and the money will come or it won't, I will either go or I won't."
Such a beautiful way to look at it. Thank you Lala!
I choose this way, too. When I look around me I do not see stability even in the others with jobs around me. I see people trying to keep their jobs, worried about cutbacks and being let go, I see perfectly capable, qualified, and experienced people being outsourced and laid off for younger and greener kids.
So is life really secure with people having a "real" job either? I think that might be what be what I may have been led to believe in the era I grew up in.
And when I really look at it with my eyes wide open is there any guarantee in life any way? It can all disappear tomorrow. Or even today.
I have really learned some important things from the cut backs in my own personal life to survive and I want to share those with you.
1. Rice and beans are good and I actually like them.
2. A little meat goes a long way.
3. Bartering for services is a viable means of trade.
I think this a good start and I may add to this later.
But I am off to the care and feeding of what I chose. I am going to embrace my desperate and scared self and love the woman brave enough inside that chose this life and the woman and child inside that has to create or perish. These people deserve my attention!